to whom much is given,
in return, much is required.
so it is Written.
when one richly reaps,
recall to also generously sow.
this, the cycle of life, we must always note.
giveback:
our legacy to infinite eternity,
the ties that forever bind beyond time.
hold nothing back!
do in fact
go for broke
lest be broke.
this is the mandate
to negotiate
to fulfil one’s fate
to self-actualize and fully realize
one’s unique place
in this here space.
Lord,
I beseech you (yet again)
tell me
guide me
loudly and very clearly (please)
As to what I am
to do
to be
so that I may proceed
newly focused and accordingly.
At times, My Lord,
I grow so weary,
burdened with existential angst
and near constant worry,
not feeling remotely worthy.
Just
alone,
lonely,
needy,
profoundly empty.
From here,
nowhere to go nor to be,
only to draw
ever nearer and nearer to
Thee.
the color purple, seminal chef d’oeuvre Alice birthed;
roots by Alex helped African-Americans define our place here on this complicated Earth;
revelations, the glorious masterpiece Alvin conceived, changed forever how dance is perceived;
i have a dream, Dr. King presciently declared to a young nation its mandate laid bare;
like these fellow humans extraordinaire,
do we all, too, have deep inside a magnum opus to share –
some work of great resonance and immediacy
one channeled through us mysteriously and thoroughly
to awaken, enlighten, and inspire humanity
so as to foster lasting peace and unity
and help alleviate suffering, injustice and egregious inequality?
affirmative, i believe
as this may be the reason why we are here now and live.
our masterwork may manifest itself as
a seemingly subtle deed
or via the birth of a divine human being.
for some, an idea whose time has finally and suddenly been fashioned;
for others, an action or creation born of deliberate and obsessive passion.
it may be immediately recognized
or, initially, widely despised and reviled.
alas, we humans can be so naïve and blind.
what is your magnum opus–
is it in the past
or do you feel it coming up for air and light at very last?
will you discern it as such
or cavalierly, insecurely dismiss it as mere fluff?
why them and not me?
why this, not that, reality?
why do the myriad dots of life connect and collide as they do?
why does, for some, dreams and fairy tales come true?
while for others, they just barely make due.
why for some, more and more,
while for others poorer than poor?
why is there still such a concept as war
when truly we know why we came here for?
why do we hide behind an app, swiping left and right,
hoping for some connection even if shallow and just for one night?
why is it that we have such fear of our vulnerability,
forgetting it is the font of our invincibility?
why pretend to be that which you are intrinsically not,
systematically obliterating that which was naturally got –
the kinky hair, the grey strands, the broad nose, the dark skin, the laugh lines
leaving not a trace of these behind?
why settle in Life when you can be so much more and soar?
why does fear seem to always be the default for so many, and courage, the internal anomaly?
why is it so hard to get along and sing the same song – we are family, we are the world, we are one, we shall overcome…
why is Love blind and not hate?
the whys, on and on I can go…would it ever end?
no.
mesmerized, I remain
obsessed, even, as if on cocaine
cannot get enough, don’t stop, but must
deeper and deeper, I am thrust
cannot get enough, don’t stop, but must
falling in “love” and in lust
with a being no longer with us
cannot get enough, don’t stop, but must
tell me, what am I to do,
how am I to be with these thoughts
this bitter and sweet misery
and burning desire to be let free,
to quickly go and join my love in eternity
“not quite yet,” whispers God above
cannot get enough, don’t stop, but must
a boulder stuck in my throat, hot tears in my eyes
love on my mind –
incessantly, sexually, spiritually
“God, please help me,” I plea
don’t want to get enough,
don’t want to stop
but – eventually – must
I remain here
love has disappeared
first and foremost, I love You.
Your love for Me, in turn, I hold in great and eternal gratitude.
Our relationship has grown beyond that of friends…
no, more like Kindred Souls to this particular end.
hence why the current page in our long and storied sojourn,
feels decidedly like a deep and painful burn.
we’ve always rooted for the other,
always encouraged one another to dream bigger and fly ever higher.
You, perhaps better than any other, know of My wanderlust and constant restlessness.
You have been privy to how My Spirit lifts, is renewed and healed by following My bliss.
So, why now this time, after an extraordinary adventure granted unto Me,
You, seething with anger born of internal frustration and pain, lash out so emotionally violently?
first and foremost, I love You; and from love, great compassion and recognition flows.
I see into You, Beloved B.
I can see the great challenge of living within a body of such fragility,
a body, once so strong (as mine, you may perceive), one designed to walk, to travel, to live independently.
with an extraordinary mind, Spirit and imagination like Yours, you were not meant for bed confinement, relegated to one small room in deafening silence.
we, the “able-bodied” go out and play; you have no choice but to stay.
I see into You, Beloved B.
what would you have me do and say when it is the benevolent Universe that wills all this way?
shall I, in fear of losing you, keep My joy from You, hide, shrink before You, so that You do not continue to resent and dismiss “me” in the depths of your pain?
is that the way forward for us? no, just prideful and inane.
We are better than that, both know better, and have the capacity to do and to be better.
The only question: together, will we?
I see You and it takes Two.
why am I here, still?
at this time, in this place, within this vessel?
what am I to be, to do, to contribute –
here in this body, space and time?
been seeking since I’m ten,
since consciousness set in:
who, what, whose am “I”?
there are no accidents, it is said.
every thing, every one has its space and purpose –
its raison d’etre.
does one have to unequivocally and consciously know it – one’s purpose
in order to live it, be it, fully manifest it?
what of those who cannot clearly see nor feel it,
where purpose is faint, elusive, scattered – silent, silenced?
Perhaps,
we can live purpose regardless of blindness?
led, driven, propelled from deep within
by an invisible yet strangely tangible Force,
one that whispers imperceptibly yet very clearly:
“don’t worry, my beloved, I got this; I got you. Always. B’lieve that.”
“When nature has work to be done, she creates a genius to do it.” Ralph Waldo Emerson
The presumption being then that when “the work” has been done to satisfaction, Nature calls genius back home: “Your work down here is complete; you’ve fulfilled your purpose. On to the next.”
In my mind and heart, this is what transpired in the case of our dearly beloved and departed Prince. Nature so stunningly and (in the moment) inexplicably ceasing him back to Her bosom, shook something deep inside of me that continues to tremble and uncomfortably shift.
I’m feeling unmoored, disoriented – not quite certain why. What exactly is going on within? As I cannot articulate it with any real coherence – just a thick mixture of sadness, dread, fear, confusion – I desperately seek both answers and comfort by delving ever deeper into The Artist’s life and music. It’s bordering frighteningly on the obsessive, this I know! Yet, I cannot turn away – it is an internal draw beyond my conscious control at the Moment. Truly I tell you, resistance is futile. So, I reluctantly relent – too tired and enthralled to do otherwise.
In an interview, Prince astutely observed that any interest in him beyond his music speaks to a lacking/a need in another – nothing to do with him. He is absolutely correct; to that I can wholeheartedly attest.
My sojourn into the Purple Rain continues to yield much and rich fruit. Presently, I am ruminating on the concept of “genius” – a word that is synonymous with Prince. Very few would dare argue otherwise – nor could do so convincingly.
Yes, Prince was a genius; he embodied it in a way that is breathtaking and astonishes, this he knew from early on until the end/beginning (how could he not?) Nature wanted to fill its world with music and showmanship not since seen or experienced and – poof – Prince Rogers Nelson was created for such a time as that. It took only 57 years for Nature’s work to be done through that relatively small human vessel- exemplifying just how bright and blindingly brilliant Prince’s Light shined, how singularly focused he was on his work, mission, purpose.
As my insides churn with envy and profound inadequacy (comparing and despairing), a little voice, whimpering and seeking some solace, whispers: “Is genius/an entity, a creation such as a Prince the exception or the rule?” This voice is challenging me to step back a little from the haze and explore further: Is genius exceptional, elitist, reserved just for some, a very select few or is it a tad more generous and democratic in its form(s)? Hope for me comes with a belief in the latter. Perhaps, this explains the inexplicable pull I’ve been feeling into the Purple Rain – the message I desperately need to hear repeatedly, grasp, own, and, ultimately, share – the work/message that genius in the form formerly known as Prince was really placed on this Earth to do/deliver.
I am reminded of these words uttered by genius currently in the form know as Marianne Williamson:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world …We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Heartfelt many thanks for the coming liberation my dearly beloved Prince!
burgeoninc 